
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Hihi.. its been a long time since i last blogged.. i have been feeling depressed lately.. and i realise tat i do cry pretty easily.. i dunno why but i aint like the past.. i aint afraid to admit tat i do cry easily these days..
i do not noe how to express how i m feeling rite now.. but i just feel terribly down these days.. i wish to be left alone.. and i dun like to be intimate or close to anyone..
i hate my life rite now.. i m unhappy n i feel like crying.. i sit in the office feeling so empty.. i cant speak properly.. i cant think properly.. all i can feel and think bout is how down i m feeling..
i feel the pressure in life coming onto mi.. i feel the expectations that people are laying out before me.. i feel myself crumbling down to all these.. i have lost the zest and the enthusiasm in life.. i do not see wat is there for mi to look forward to.. i see my life as just this.. empty.. i work daily just to earn enough wages.. i earn enough wages just to pay for my future studies.. i pay for my future studies to get an honest degree.. and then?
i do not know where to go from then.. i do not noe wat to do from then.. i have no plans for myself.. i do not know wat i want.. i do not even want to noe wat i want... i do not noe why i m like this rite now.. but its really killing mi..
dieing,
kiki
posted at 4:49 pm... bye...
23 JAN
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